Edwin - August 2009, exactly 6 years old

Edwin came into our lives last September as a rescue. He was mistreated and had a mean streak in him, but we saw the sweet side of Edwin a few times. Unfortunately his aggressive behaviour did him an injustice and we had to make the awful desision to send our little Edwin to the Bridge way before his time. My heart and our home is empty without you, my little guy. As I wipe away the tears, I hope you are at peace now my little Edwin.

Love you and miss you very much,
Mommy and Daddy and Sisters CeeBee and Emma

Schnitzel Stinky Williams - August 2008, 13 years, 4 months old

My sweet Schnitzel,

You were perhaps the most precious gift that daddy gave me. You were stubborn, energetic and spiteful...your little presents on the carpet when you did not get to go for a ride. I will forever miss your singing and bouncy greetings after only being gone for a few minutes and your burrowing in our bed after an early morning wake up. Go in peace to the Rainbow Bridge - baby Chance is waiting there to show you the way home. We'll be together again.

Bosco Rayburn - August 2009, 6 years old

My dear little Bosco boy,
I loved you so much and you knew that. You left me way too soon. I thought you were tougher than this! I'm sorry we couldn't save you. I tried everything and I know you didn't want to leave me. I will always remember you and your antics. You were a little devil but I loved you with all my heart. I still have our car with the chewed up seatbelts, you little turd!!! Run free my little guy, - maybe you can visit with Jilly now. She had a little brother you didn't know named Jack, and he is there with you, too. I hope you three can be friend.
Love you and miss you,
Your Mom

Jack Benny aka Weenie - August 2009, 4 years, 6 months old

Surprising myself today, I was taken by my thoughts of my Weenie's last few nights with me. I still feel bad - he was hurting and I did not realise just how bad he was. He chewed his collar nearly off, he was agitated, he was swollen, he felt his usual hot self. I asked myself how long was my baby really sick? Sweet, mellow, quiet Benny Boo - he looked to me for his safety. I did all I knew to do to help him and it just wasn't enough; it eats at me. I cried so hard while holding on to him, with as much love as I could convey through my words, my heart was aching so bad, I did not want him to leave me. After a time I begain to see that he had to leave and I wanted his passing to be easy for him. All night I kept feeling his little chest as I felt it move in and out, his little body was getting colder and colder even though I kept him under the covers by me on my bed. I knew it would not be long - he needed to go, be out of pain, over to the other side, that side I can only imagine. I know he must be there today, lying around, staying warm in the brightness that only God gives out. Maybe he can really hop up now and get to a nice little bed to share with some of my other buddies that went way before him. I miss you, miss you, miss you.

Things I loved about Benny:
  • he preferred me;
  • he loved to have me rub his chest;
  • he liked sleeping on my side while I slept;
  • he was persistant;
  • he was so tiny;
  • he was vigilant.

Things in my heart, I can't get past yet:
  • how Weenie looked while waiting for me to pick him up and carry him into the living room, so small and shaking;
  • how he barked when he wanted out of the cage to be with the rest of us;
  • how his eyes followed me around the room;
  • he was in so much pain he chewed at his collar. He couldn't be still, he kept dragging himself away to me in the bed;
  • he seemed to be calmed if I would just keep holding him;
  • his last night he kept throwing the cover off his face, so I made sure it stayed off;
  • when giving him his last bit of water, how his eye followed my movements.

I miss you Benny Boo!!

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